I don’t know why I think I need others approval
Because I don’t. This is something that’s going to make me feel better. Sure I might feel crazy or weird but that’s me. It’s what I’m feeling. It’s what’s going to make me happy. I shouldn’t give a fuck what he or others think. He wants to think I’m crazy then cool. Good. Because maybe I am a little bit, but I’m going to do what makes me happy. And giving this to him, it will make me feel better and I’m going to start doing more of that. Doing things to make me happy without second guessing myself. I just need to make a few changes, but then I’ll do it. For me. If he never reads my story then he is missing out, of course I want him to, but at the same time if he doesn’t want to know I really can’t make him. Maybe he’ll read it maybe he won’t, but atleast I won’t be regretting it later
Matthew Gray Gubler’s reasons to stay alive…
(via classssyandfabulous)
The sad thing is
If the future turned out like what a few people have joked about, I wouldn’t be sad. And the fact is I dont know why, you are absolutely one of the biggest douchebags I have ever met. Why would I want that?
Well one guy tries
But honestly you are just to nice. I know it sounds ridiculous but every girl understands. I want someone to try and dig me out of the hole I keep barring myself in, girl or guy. I was asked earlier who I hangout with. I had zero names as an answer……..
I wish I could write
What I can’t stop thinking about. To get it out of my head. For it to be on paper. I should be able to because that’s what a blog is for. But I know people will see it. And go around talking about it. And that I just can’t afford. I’m to shameful.
Help
I can’t physically put into words why or what is happening to me. I can’t even figure it out myself. I just have this feeling, and I know I need help.
